Dreams

I believe in the power of dreams.  They say dreams are our brain's way of sorting out our thoughts and letting our mind rest.  I tend to have colorful, sometimes vivid dreams, but rarely have nightmares.  My dreams usually involve quite creative, sometimes intricate stories and serve different purposes.  For example, when I'm really stressed, I usually have a dream about being in college and specifically, the Michigan Marching Band when I was carefree, in great shape (I mean, come on, I was 18, lol!), and was surrounded by my best friends daily.  It was a fun time and I think my dreams are centered there to help me settle.  Its comforting and reassuring at the same time and I always wake feeling relieved and rested, ready to tackle whatever I need to.  

I usually enjoy my dreams, even if I don't necessarily understand them.  But dreams can sometimes have other meanings and I believe there is divine intervention involved with many of our dreams.  In fact, I believe certain dreams are God's messages, whispered to us by the angels.  Angel whispers are soft and gentle, and they help our thoughts relax so we can sleep in peace, unbothered by the beating of our hearts which never sleep and without the complications of life when we’re awake.  Then, when we awake, we are newly blessed, with the angel’s whisper mixing perfectly with our own spirit.  I think they also often show us glimpses into the future.

When I was pregnant with Case, I am positive an angel whispered to me.  Now, during my pregnancy, I had probably the most bizarre vivid dreams I will ever have in my entire life!  There are three that stick in my memory because they were just so clear- the first 2 were absolutely weird and more than likely hormonally driven, but the third was completely different.  

The first one was in my 2nd trimester and involved looking out our 2nd floor bedroom window and seeing dinosaurs walking through our backyard.  And I mean BIG ones like Brachiosaurs!  But they didn't cause a ruckus or any damage- they were all quiet, peaceful, and just sauntered around.   Yep, that's right- a yard full of dinosaurs.  The second one was in my 2nd trimester too and was a type of "labor dream".  In it, I went in the hospital and when the baby was born and the nurse held it up....it was the cutest schnauzer puppy you could imagine!  All wrapped up in a baby blanket and no one seemed the least bit weirded out.  Um, ok.....lol!  Now, I think this happened because at the time (and still) my little schnauzer Lambeau was the only baby I had and I loved him sooo much (still do!).  Still, after these I wasn't sure what to think.  I figured they were just normal, weird pregnancy dreams that had some involved meaning but frankly, I didn't want to figure it out (it was summer and I was getting bigger and well, I didn't want to think too hard, lol).  Then the third dream came along.  To this day, I KNOW that this was an angel whisper.  

We had decided not to find out the sex of our baby because...well...there are so few surprises in life that are absolutely joyful and we wanted keep God's surprise for the moment the baby was born.  So even though different people had their sure-fire methods for predicting the sex (the string thing, how I carried the baby, etc), I blew most of it off.  Then I had "the dream".   It was at the beginning of my third trimester.  I had not even been thinking about the baby's sex, but one day I had a very clear dream that it was be a boy- a big, healthy baby boy!  From the second I woke up, I knew an angel had whispered to me.  I just knew it!  I decided not to share the dream with my husband (who was convinced we were having a girl...then a boy...then a girl, lol!) because I wanted to keep this little secret to myself.  It felt so special, I was absolutely sure I had received divine news.  From that moment on, I focused on mainly boy names and boy themes etc and on a beautiful fall day, I was blessed to become the mother of...yep, a big, healthy baby boy!  Everyone else was surprised and happy and  I was too in a way, but not in the same way.  I realized I had had a very spiritual, very personal experience and my faith was further reinforced that God and his angels were always with me and looking over me.  It was truly beautiful and something I'll forever cherish, as I do the son sent to me from God that day.

Now as we get closer to our 3rd month of waiting for a referral, I wonder when and if I am going to have a dream of my second son, my other God-sent baby that is waiting for us in Poland.  If I have it, will the dream be as simple and straightforward as the one about Case?  Will there be more information and perhaps even descriptive details?  I obviously haven't had this dream yet, but I'm hoping I do.  I know I can't control when they come and what they're about, but I love the thought that my angels bring me messages of hope and love when I rest.  This adoption journey is so much different than experiencing a pregnancy, but the serenity that comes with an angel whisper is something I would love to hear again.  Until then, I will wait patiently because as I have faith God is perfect in his timing and if He needs me to know something about our new son, I'm positive He'll let me know.  And hopefully an angel will whisper its soft and gentle message in our son's ear as well while he's peacefully asleep to let him know how much we love him and that we'll be coming soon.